I've Moved Again!

I'm over in the new place! Here's a few pictures of the main living areas. There are no pictures of the bedrooms or bathrooms because, frankly, they're messy, lived in, and the wall hangings aren't up yet.

The Living Room






The Kitchen and Dining Room





Pictures at the Top of the Stairs



I have to admit, I was sad to leave my apartment. The majority of my friends live there. I was so afraid I was going to lose contact with all of them. But in these past two weeks I've lived here, I've come to love it. I'm right across the parking lot. I visit almost daily.

It feels great to have my two sons living with me. Bryan has decided to go with Matthew to their dad's every other week. Lucy (Bryan's dog) and Ow (Bryan's cat) moved in with us. Lucy went with Bryan and Matthew over to Nick's house for visitation, but Ow stayed here. Ow seems to love the warmth and the lazy life he's living here. Lucy was getting used to the place at the end of her week here, so I'm a little nervous about how she's going to react when she returns. I'm hoping she won't be negatively reactive once she comes back here.

An extremely hard part of having Matthew go to his dad's half time is when Matthew calls or texts me when he doesn't feel well or he's having an issue and knowing I can't do squat about it. Tonight he texted me he wasn't feeling well, and I let him know he needed to tell his dad. He didn't want to. I can't take care of him on his dad's weeks. That's something Matthew can't understand, though.

I'm still trying to take life one day at a time. My shoulder surgery was almost six weeks ago now, and trying to relax has been difficult. My calendar is filling up again with PT appointments, speaking engagements, and appointments for Matthew. I feel better now that I don't "have" to sit and try to relax. I can start living life again.

Until the next dirt...

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