Moving on with the Dirt

I had a lot of hatred going on these past few weeks. I was hurt by the actions Nick was pulling. Then I realized, I left to work on my own "stuff." Part of that was my feelings on monogamy. If he thought I wasn't going to be monogamous, why should he stay that way? It's not fair to him to expect him to stay that way when he didn't know if I was going to stay that way. (Of course, open communication would have prevented a lot of the struggle and heartache in this, but it is what it is.) I've come to terms with all of this now, though. I wish Nick the best. I just want to get this divorce over with and move on with my life, like he's moved on with his. For quite a while I felt discarded. I felt like I wasted the last almost 27 years of my life, like I’d thrown away all those years. But you know what? They weren’t thrown away! They have made me into the woman I am today. Those years gave me three beautiful children. They gave me memories, both good and bad. N...