Moving on with the Dirt

I'm going to share something I wrote in my journal on January 15 of this year. Keep in mind this is what I felt and they are just my feelings and opinions: "I never wanted to be a divorced woman. And now I have signed divorce papers and this divorce is looming in front of me and could be finalized as early as this week. It's everything I didn't want in life. I have to look Nick in the eye in two days and admit (in my head) that I was a failure at what I tried so hard at in life, and he doesn't even care - he moved on so quickly without a care in the world, when it ripped my world apart..." My divorce was finalized three days later. I'm pretty good at pretending everything is good. I was glad the whole mess was over with. However, what I wrote was true. I never wanted to be a divorced woman. When I got married, it was going to be for life. There are still times when I look back and feel like a complete failure because I left. There was another thing I wrote...