Time to Kick Out Another One

It's another Monday, and it's time for another blog. Where did the last week go?

It went to numerous appointments, that's where it went. My day is one constantly full calendar. I live for Tuesdays when I can go to work and know that's the only thing I'm doing during the day. Maybe I'll run an errand or two for the boss, maybe not, but the expectations are pretty much the same for me every Tuesday. And I love the car ride - it's such a great time to unwind and get ready for what's ahead of me.

Speaking of cars, Nick got me a 2008 Chevy HHR to beat around in. I call the car "Ye Ole Jalopy." He has a ton of character (the car, although Nick does, too). He's got his scratches and dents (again, the car), a chip in the windshield, and I absolutely love him (both the car and Nick). Nick put on new tires and fixed the awful exhaust rattle. Here's my new baby:


What else did I do in this past week? I got my tattoo! It took half an hour, and I fell asleep while Nick the tattoo artist was doing it. It was just so relaxing. I woke up when he was filling in the top left white circles, but I loved the whole process otherwise. Here's the pic:


The best news is, though, that I have been working on my writing. I bought several different writing notebooks, some of which I consider to be expensive, to write down my thoughts, story ideas, and memories. Then Lucy, the most ill-behaved dog in the world, chews up the expensive notebooks. One she completed destroyed, and one I was able to kind of repair:

I'm so grateful that Lucy starts training soon. In two more weeks, she starts a ten-week doggy daycare/training program. I'm hoping that they're able to take care of her chewing and barking issues. Also, I'm hoping she won't cower as much once she's around other dogs besides Gracie Lou and she discovers that dogs and people can be fun.

Nick and I have plans to go away for a weekend in November. It feels like it's been forever since we took a weekend away together. We took a brief night together at the beginning of this month, but that was barely 14 hours. This will be a whole weekend together. Our marriage really needs these weekends once a month in order to keep it healthy and happy.

As for a mental health check-in, I'm doing fine. I've taken my meds faithfully this week. I've journaled. I'm trying to get in some sleep. The sleep thing is hard, though. I just want to stay up, listen to music, and write. That doesn't mean I don't get exhausted, because I do. I just don't want to sleep at night when most normal people sleep. I want to get some sleep at night and some sleep during the day. Power naps!

Let's all wish a happy birthday to my mother-in-law today, as well!

Until next week's dirt...

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